Sanity, I should try that.

So what does one do when they are on the verge of insanity? Blog of course! So yes I am waiting for paint to dry and because I have been absolutely brilliant this week and I had completed all the task I had to do tonight (that I remembered to bring the paint for-stop laughing I already made two trips to the shop and yes I still didn't not bring everything I needed, can't you just feel the brilliantness!) Anywho everything is done but this one wall but it has to dry before I move on to the next step because someone hasn't been planning things well this month. But things will be getting better for the new computer is on its way. Yes a new computer because Maria may have snapped one morning after only getting a couple hours of sleep and bought a new Apple desktop. Yes Stacy I am referred to myself in the third person-mostly to dramatize the way I am feeling right now. Oh and they are having me do storytime tomorrow, that is going to be fun, I hope the cool people in the cafe give me coffee.

Konstantine

This has been replayed on my fake ipod way too much and yet one more time

Konstantine
Something Corporate

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
it's always you in my big dreams

And you tell me
That it's over
Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover
And you're restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
no, could you let me go
I didn't think so

and you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
the present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all this hope
You had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
and it did because of me

And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

I had these dreams, in them I learned to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me
That I could take you there
But damn it you're so young
But I don't think I care
and if I hurt you then i'm sorry
please don't think that this was easy

And then you bring me home
'Cause we both know what it's like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

And Konstantine is walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And I was thinking, what I was thinking
But we've been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long blonde hair
And I've been thinking
It hurts me thinking
That these nights when we were drinking
No they never got us anywhere, no

This is because I can spell konfusion with a K
And I can like it
It's to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
when the first star you see
may not be a star
I'm not your star
Isn't that what you said?
what you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes
just to lie with my mistakes
and live with what I did to you
All the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine
My Konstantine

They'll never hurt you like I do
No, They'll never hurt you like I do
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No

This is to a girl who got into my head
with all the pretty things she did
Hey, You know, you keep me up in bed
This is to a girl who got into my head
with all these fucked up things I did
Hey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine

Spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said,
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you

I miss you

And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no No,
And then you'll kiss me in your living room, oh
I know you miss me in your living room
Cause these nights I think maybe that I miss you in my living room
We don't have much room
I said, does anybody need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live

...My Konstantine.

What the??

So yeah interesting week, and by interesting I say let's never repeat that again. Not that is was a bad week in terms that 20 years from now I will still be haunted by the stupid things that happened but it definitely took at mental toll on the brain there. I do remember going up to people and asking if they wanted anybody killed for I had that much frustration in me. (it's the Italian I think) But I calmed the rage within and no one died. Now everything seems to be fine and I discovered I haven't been outside to read in a very long time so that might help with the people must die attitude. Must get out by pool for mental sanity. Also borders today was pretty relaxing. I came into do storytime, and to my surprise I was 1/2 hour late, yet I didn't get in trouble for it because they changed the scheduled last minute and never notified me. mmm. And I was there before storytime actually started so all was good. That and only one boy came so we ditched the planned reading a read some Thomas the tank engine books. Then Chris and I shelved DVD's oh so many I want and I believe Chris is going to lone me his copy of Crash. hehe I love movies and TV series especially the british. There may have been several times where I had to stop and make sure the back of a DVD was okay. Nicole was passing out free samples always a plus, Jeff was walking around with a metal rod attached to his head with a sign that said go see spidey-3 today. I had the mud chocolate cheesecake for lunch with the berry cascade to drink, Anthony discovered water coming from the walls, Bill was only there for the last hour, and Tim was announcing Elton John randomly. Oh and we learn that pushing the walkie talkie over at the push to talk button doesn't actually make the walkie talkie talk. Thanks Joe for that discovery. So yeah I am tired of writing and am terrible about ending blogs. peace.

Remember

So I have remember my login for this blog and with starting the Photo Blog I think I would rather use this as the template. Though right now all pictures are on Myspace and facebook. But yeah look for more post in the future.

Ah Ha!

Yes I am NOT DEAD. It has been awhile for some reason the computer and me talking to it just wasn't working this month. But Anywho, now I am back and writing. Which is odd because I am also writing a new story. Got up at 5:45am this morning to Drive Karen to the airport. Crazy waking before the sun rises nonesense. Though it was good. I made breakfast and roommates help me to each it all. Now I am in the middle of making rum balls from my failed rum fudge. I tried using Rum extract and less chocolate but it took all of of Mansfield Park to thicken and even then it is still kind of sticky. It taste great but must find a way to make it less sticky. Right now the answer is dipping it in chocolate while listening to music. I made lots of fudge and chocolate biscotti! I think it turned out quite well actually. Oh and Rachel I just got over 800 books in Librarything and I still have a 4 foot by 8 foot bookshelf to go! (hehehe)

Mango Mochi

Today was a wonderful day. One because I spent most of the day surrounded by beautiful books. Two because I bought a 4 GB compact flash for 55 bucks! (My 1 GB is worth 65) Three I final got to the Oriental Market before it closed and got Mango Mochi. Four I watched The Cat Returns and five I got to wrap a present today. Now I still haven't gone chirstmas shopping. (I have to do that this weekend) But the Theatre Christmas party is one Monday so I had to get that going. I also need to take pictures of the set. It really looks like a huge christmas present. Now on to readin the next show then bed.

hehehe

So today was a good day of doing not much of anything. Karen and I decided to go ice skating. It was nice and cool and I did not fall down once but I almost ran into the skate guard. It was nice to pretend it was winter. Then I started to check some very inportant things on-line. (ie checking if that make ice skates for doggies) Then I e-mailed my friend ryan who I lost his e-mail and then found on the website of the radio station he works at. Which lead me to the homestar runner oh the e-mails. I have missed you. Inbetween that I also checked out that Right Arms myspace hehehe silly band silly boys great fun. Tomorrow is the start of tech and nights yippie.