Rachel and Matt

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Wanted to post this photo caused I like it. With that
I leave you will the song that is playing in my head.

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waiting, he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could cry.

Chorus:
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go.
I'm leavin' on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go.

There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I think of you
Every song I sing, I sing for you
When I come back, I'll wear your wedding ring.

(Chorus)

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Then close your eyes, I'll be on my way.
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
About the times, I won't have to say,

Chorus:
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go.
I'm leavin' on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go.

Beautiful Night

Tonight was wonderful though there is not a star in the sky, and I cried half the way home from Madison. It was a good cry, while swing life away was playing on my radio, then as several other songs played and I must admit I skipped to the songs that prolonged the tears. I am very happy to be driving by myself for the first hour and a half on the trip to Florida, because there will be much crying once I leave the state. I have never been good at good-byes. I make the worst out of the day when in reality it was one of the best days I have had in a long time. Mostly just because I had a strong feeling to just have fun all day and I did. I really can't remember when was the last time I thought I would have fun and did. Usually it just happens or if I think I will have fun then something negative that I never could have imaged happens. But none of that today. I started out with good music in the car and ending with good music on the way back. I got to go to places I have never been before, the Pancake house, ( there chocolate chip pancakes are like eating hot chocolate pancakes!) The Zoo which is free in Madison and has monkeys!!!!! and a badger which we called Bucky and were singing On Wisconsin to. Then we went to pick out movies, She's a Man (my pick) Fantasic 4 (greg's pick) and Nanny McPhee (anna's pick). After all the walking at the Zoo and Blockbuster we need to revive ourselves with Ben and Jerry's ice cream, Coffee buzz milkshake mmmmmm. Then back to the apartment to watch all three videos and eat pizza, salad and poppers. Going to Florida is scaring me more and more as I get ready to leave. Being so far away from friends doing a job I have never really done. Hurricane season with a possibility of flying alligators. Not to mention the huge realization that I am not returning to school and indeed have to behave somewhat like a grown up. That all my books will not be only a hours drive from where I live. That I do not have people I can just randomly show up at their house and they must take me in. I need to stop this list I am freaking myself out and there is no need to after such a nice day.

Milwaukee

So I have found that I am foud of many cities. In a way I like traveling. I went to milwaukee on Thursday for Italian night. once again we did not watch Italian footage nor did we look at Italian photographs. We did however eat lots of food including dessert: homemade biscotti, two kinds of ice cream, cake, all topped with two type of hot fudge sauce and carmel sauce. mmmm Spending the night because during the sugar high of the evening we discovered that I needed to be present for a photo shoot for my friend Jennifer. One for her women project, which is a black and white medium format shot from a twin reflex. Then a really crazy shoot by the lake on the rocks. Tis great fun and make me want to open up a studio with the two of them. It would be great, but they have to finish school and I just need to save up some money. Going back tonight to pick up some things from the lab that I left and to actually see photos from Italy.

Picture of the post

One Week

It is officially seven days before I leave Wisconsin. I have 148 pages before I finish Middlemarch and nine tracks left on my CD. It is a time of endings and beginnings. New state, new book and new Cd. Let's see what comes of these new things, some good some bad probably with a lot wonderful mixed in. After I get settle one of my first things is to find some where that has swimming lessons. After that besides work I have no idea what will become of me. oh the possibilities of the unknown!

Cleaning

It is amazing what one acquires over the course of one's lifetime. How you forget that you own things, or that you once saved up weeks worth of paychecks for a device that now is collecting dust. Or perhaps a CD that is now digitally collecting dust on the old laptop that is collecting dust. When I look at everything I own I am kind of glad that it would all fit into a small room. Then again there are a lot of things that I just don't need any more. You also become aware of exactly how many stuffed animals you have. Or like right now how many cables to electronics devices that you save just in case. While there is some very cool things about sorting through all your earthly possessions, it also makes you feel like your life is a little messed up. Why haven't I used this cable with three prongs on one side and none of the other? Why is the fat cat plush toy sitting in a box? Why haven't I pulled out all my books to re-discover them? Is there something wrong with me that I do not fancy the music I once saved all my money to buy? Perhaps it is just my fickleness, I often feel I am amused by one thing only to be distracted by another, the never stable gypsy who wonders around the country not really on any quest. Perhaps Jung is getting to me and I am finding meaning in things that do not have it. The world is a curious place, thank goodness for monkeys.

Quote: If youth is the season of hope, it is often so only in the sense that our elders are hopeful about us; for no age is so apt as youth to think its emotions, partings, and resovles are the last of their kind.-- George Eliot- Middlemarch

Weird Week of Wakelessness

This week has been one of much sleep. One night I slept 12 hours, woke up ate and then slept until I took my little brother to go see Julius Ceaser at APT. I did stay awake for the drive out there and the play but had to stop and get coffee on the way home, even then I was struggling to stay awake come in after midnight and fell right to sleep. The next morning I woke up with more energy then I could imagine! I was hyper all morning until the afternoon then I went to a Hydra build night and felt sleepy most of the evening (maybe it was the glue?) After a very non taxing day and evening I went right to sleep. Then there was my brilliant plan to wake up earily and take a certain birthday girl for breakfast but ended up with me staying in bed until I need to go to madison to get my car fix. An adventure that lasted over 3 and half hours, during which I read and tried not to fall asleep in the Saturn waiting room. Good grief I am becoming old. While all of this sleepness has hinder my ability to see people and pack, it has allowed me to read far more then I have been able too. I am loving the two books I am reading Middlemarch by George Eliot which I recommend to everyone even though it is almost 800 pages. And A Man and his symbols, a book on Jung editted by Jung. The are both so very enlightening, not on the sleep issue but life in general. Feeling the need to sleep again I am going to drink my tea and read.

Breakfast outside

It is not every day that you end up in Spring Green but I have to say out of all the towns in the world it makes me feel at home. I decided against better judgement to drive to Spring Green at around 9:30pm. Having no schedule will do that to you. I park my car and walk towards the town bar, always an awkward feeling to walk into a crowd bar alone. But no fear for as I am about to reach the door Rory Horken deck chief comes out and gives me a hug. And that is how most of the night went, except I gave my "husband" Wanye a kiss because he was celebrating his birthday. It was nice to just sit down and talk with friends (and to be called hot by a little tipsy Jim D.) The night continue on to Leah's house where people were randomly being pulled from the crowd to do body shots. I tried to contain my "excitement" or rather the "you are not getting me to do that" and with SDH retreated to the outdoors. In all it was an evening of some great conversations. One ending with Stacey and I falling asleep in her car downtown Spring Green. I have to say though I would take conversations to fall asleep by to body shots any day. The best part was after Stacey and I got up we decided we were hungry but could not figure out where to go expect for in Madison. After a long debate and deciding we were to hungry to wait for the drive to Madison and then finding food, we decided to go to the store and make breakfast. It was here we learned that Stacey and I should never go food shopping hungry. 85 dollars later with have everything we need for coffee, orange juice, eggs with lots of different veges, homefries and pancakes: chocolate chip and walnut. We decided to go to the convent to cook our breakfast so we could share with the people there. And yes it took two and half hours from when we decided this would be faster then going to madison, but eating with breakfast with seven friends is really priceless. Not to mention we ate outside because it was beautiful, where more conversation came into being. After much coffee and way to much food (by the way chocolate chip pancakes with walnuts with Raspberry syrup the best thing ever) My day is finally starting at well close to four. Who knows what tonight might bring.

New Life

You every wake up and just feel different, prehaps because something just happen like a birthday, or maybe you are catching a cold. Today was one of those days except I do not believe I have a cold nor was it just my birthday, but I do feel different. My mind is filling with adventures, some small like making corn soup, other's large like flying to random cities around the world. Then there are the medium ones like going to see the mississippi river on Monday. Or at least that is what I am thinking about doing since I have never seen the mississippi. Right now though I am taken on the very exciting adventure of processing digital photos. Yippie!